Okay, what to write...

I have decided to join blogger as a way to broadcast my life, so here we go: I am a shy, complex young woman living in Nevada City, California, in a two bedroom house with my best friend, her mother and three parrots. While I sit in my room counting the days until I get to drive up to Tahoe to see my beautiful boyfriend who is finishing up his senior year in high school, I ponder about how useless my life is and how I am basically doing nothing with my life so far. When I packed up my car after graduating from Squaw Valley Academy and moved down to this place; my home town; my so called haven, that night I realized it was a big mistake and I should still be in Tahoe with the boy I love. These days I just want to slap myself because coming back to Nevada County was one of the stupidest decisions I have made and I have purposely, with out thinking put myself directly back into a familiar world full of doubt and bad memories. My reason for moving back was so I could live with people who loved me and cared about my well being opposite of what I had previously felt in this town, also that there was an inexpensive community college just a couple miles away. I never knew that living here with out Gabriel would be such an unpleasant experience.